Friday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i am 12 stone 10 lbs yipee !!!! now lets see if i can manage to keep it off  the weekend.. im going to see my fab little nephew and see my mama and dad they like to feed people i think they are like me always cooking.. ill let you know monday morning how i got on .. wish me look. and the rings have been chosen they are traditional irish bands and the are just fab.... a little jewlers in county louth hand make them and they are not too expensive 500euros for both wedding bands !!! sweet.

still 13 stone still not loving myself...still not happy that i got this size !! I am very aware that to just put the fork or glass down for a couple of weeks would help, i have no will power. The wedding plans are full steam ahead as and from today it is less than 1 year. new mission a photograher , a videographer , a D.J a cake the wedding rings the invites the groomsman suits the flower girls dress the pageboys suit my mamas outfit his mamas outfit the choosin of the menu the writing of our vows the choice of peoms/songs/tunes to be played, and so far thats all i can think of. I am sure there is a ton load more but for today i think i will take an easy one and just choose the rings.

Tuesday 27th sept.. just went out traing and to be quite vile about it i had to stop and expel my breakfast { which was eggs and toast } 8km long, buckets of sweat, a few tears and the struggle has begun.

well its monday and the first day of the dieting, well boiled egg and brown bread with green tea for breakie. starting weight 13 stone { cringe } how did i get to this weight my daughter is 8 so i can hardly call it baby weight. and great news the other halfs family is coming to our place 2day for drinks , catch up , and wait for it ......... yes FOOD... i sometimes wish i couldnt cook. The weekend did consist of me trying on my dress with the bridesmaids and mam, and lots of wine/champers/ciders you get the picture. about 2.30am i was a little tipsy in my dress dancing to what i think was a mixed tape of the 80s so mam took it and put it away in her house for me so there can be no repeats of that. tomorrow it will be exactly one year to my wedding. Tic Toc Tic Toc ...............................

losing my fat !

well from monday morning i give up my favourite thing in the world food! not all of it but enough of the good stuff to lose weight for my wedding which will be in one year. i oredered my dress in a size i thought would be to big for me but turns out was too small ! its official i am a big girl. so i will post away with how i cope losing weight , booking bands , djs , cars etc.... how i cope with my many bridesmaids / mother and mother in law and see if i can manage not to be BRIDEZILLA.